Ammon & Work

My baby is so much fun. I just LOVE watching him learn new things. In the last week or so he has:
~Learned to clap (so cute!)
~Bounce himself on the trampoline on his knees
~He's letting go of things more and standing on his own or walking holding on to one of your hands not two...
~He knows if he hears a *beep* outside that his Daddy has come home then he'll look at me and say "Da"
~He'll shake his head when I say "No" and
~He'll turn his head from side to side when I'm changing a dirty nappy and I say "Pooh Wee!" (as in whoa that's smelly let me get my head away from the fumes!)
I'm just really enjoying my baby and for some reason it seems this time round is a little different. Is it because he's a boy? Is it because he's number 3? Because... I have to go back to work in exactly 16 days and I have to say, I'm really not looking forward to it. After the girls I was quite keen to go to work and have adult conversation and a break from the house, but this time.... I just wanna stay home.
I'm supposed to be weaning Ammon but I don't want to, so I'm not, kinda. I took him off one feed so now I only feed him around 6.30am and 8pm, but I'm not ready to let those two go. I feel like it's too early, he's not even one. I'm really happy with the fact that my body has been able to feed my babies for so long, some Mum's aren't so lucky. Don't get me wrong I don't want to keep Ammon a baby, I love watching him grow, and no I am not going to be one of those Mum's still breastfeeding their 5 year old child (uh uh no way!)... I'm not sure how to say what I'm thinking here... I think I had it but I've lost it... I've still got baby brain!... ahhhh... but, I guess I'm just really enjoying this time instead of looking ahead waiting for it to be over and moving on to the next step.
I am loving now and wishing it didn't have to change, not just yet.

p.s. Leah had her 4 year immunizations today. I've finally learnt and so sent Daddy along this time. I asked her when she got home if she was brave and she just looked at me (you know with that look that asks Hello are you for real? duh Mum!) and said "No, I cried". Straight up is my Leah, no beating around the bush with her... Love that.